Nasty Little Rat (Just a Foolish Boy)

A slightly odd being with a taste for writing, music, and dark things.
Unfortunately, it has also been dragged into fandom.

Call me Butler or Sebastian.

I try to see all sides of the argument, and I can often be found 'playing Devil's advocate with a drink in hand.'

This blog is mostly run off of a queue, so please don't be alarmed if something old is reblogged.

Did I tell you all about that time I went to Italy with school, and our teacher took us to go see Jesus’ crotch?

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2 weeks ago on May 5th | J | 1 note

Don’t you love it when you have a caption written on a sketch and someone looks at them and says ‘That would be far prettier without the words on it’. 

Well, without the words it doesn’t mean the same, and they’re my words anyway, they’re probably more important anyway. 

2 months ago on March 9th | J | 1 note
I always get the impression that it would be a bad idea to show you too much love or give you too many compliments or try to get any closer to you. I just have this feeling that that would really freak you out. Am I right?

Anonymous

I’ve cut it because I like read more-s and it got a little long.

You’re certainly right on both if I don’t already like you.

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3 months ago on February 13th | J | 1 note

Someone stop me from listening to Empty Chairs at Empty Tables when I’m writing.

Please.

3 months ago on February 3rd | J | 0 notes

Something I like about the way I draw is that it’s usually totally random. So people looking through my sketchbook/folder can see like five sketches of friends being cute and then a happy pumpkin and then a character holding it’s eyes by the optical nerve.

4 months ago on January 21st | J | 2 notes

A family present was a magnetic scrabble set. Possibly the worst and best ideas for gifts. Current messages read as follows:

(brother’s name) smells greatly (my brother put smells great and so my dad just added ‘ly’ and it took the kid about three days to realise what it now meant omg)

we love mum and dad 

tea is hot (is this a warning or a comment, I can not tell)

immortals is inaccurate 

4 months ago on January 13th | J | 1 note

Anyone trying to message me, please try again. Much of Tumblr is not working at the moment, including ask box, queue, and rebloging. 

4 months ago on January 2nd | J | 0 notes
And apologies again for personal questions, but I noticed your post about kissing boys when drunk which kinda confused me. I don’t really know much about asexuality but I always assumed it meant you had no desire to do anything vaguely sexual?

Don’t worry about it, I’m quite happy to answer them.  You might wish to brace for the essay that’s coming, though I’ll try to keep it short.

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4 months ago on December 31st | J | 1 note

A slight bone to pick. I write. I write a lot. All the time. I have quite literally hundreds of characters and story lines. Most of them will never see anyone but me because they’re too personal or just plain rubbish.

So, when I let someone read one of them it’s actually quite a big deal to me. Especially if it’s one that I didn’t actually write to be read, and essentially about two parts of my personality at war trying to kill the rest of me. Angsty, personal, shit. So turning around and saying things like ‘why are they both genderless? That’s weird.’ is not exactly what I was prepared for. I was ready for ‘wow, this is shit’ or ‘you have too much angst and torture in your stories’, not a question (among others) about gender. I told you that these characters are part of me, they’re genderless because I am, you fucking moron. 

4 months ago on December 29th | J | 1 note
over the past feew weeks I have scrolled through a grand total of 148 pages of you'r blog starting from the beginning trying to learn more about you only to realise after this that you have a nice little link to all of the more personal posts of yours. thank you for doing that :) ps. I'm not actually a stalker.

Anonymous

I’m glad to hear that, Anon. I’m also sorry that you went through my blog like that ._.

I didn’t even realise it was that long, to be honest.

If you still want to know things, you can always ask, Anon or not. 

4 months ago on December 27th | J | 0 notes

My friends can be well meaning douche bags at times.

Dears, offering to be a ‘cuddle buddy’ for me is the same as asking me out. You’re not asking me out, so stop it. Especially as I would say yes if you were asking me out.

4 months ago on December 27th | J | 1 note
I apologise for writing something that you didn't like. But I am glad I haven't offended you. I understand you more now; would you prefer to be referred to as 'he', 'him' even though you do not have a specific gender? I see in your information you are okay with people referring to you as 'It', but as a androgynous myself, I really don't like using that pronoun unless I was talking about an inanimate object.

Anonymous

It’s fine, don’t worry about it. Like I said, it didn’t offend me, just meant that I wouldn’t post the ask. 

Yes, I prefer male pronouns. Hahah, I kind of see myself as an object, so I don’t mind ‘it’ either. 

5 months ago on December 21st | J | 0 notes

To the Anon that asked me a question:

I’m not going to reply publicly to that because I dislike the information you’ve shared. You haven’t offended me, though.

My asexuality is separate from my gender, though admittedly it does make it somewhat easier to get by, hahah. 

Sebastian is my name and while I don’t hate people calling me by something else, it can bother me at times. I don’t have a specific gender, but since I have some relatively feminine qualities I prefer masculine pronouns , etc, to sort of ‘balance it out’. 

5 months ago on December 20th | J | 1 note

A friend has been feeling very down recently, and went to see the doctor. She’s been given pills, which is great. But a piece of advice that her dad gave her sounded quite good to me, which boils down to ‘be yourself’. Now, this was because she had basically given up dressing up for school (not that she looked like it, the girl is far too awesome for that, and incredibly attractive at that.) 

And so I thought, well, so have I.

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5 months ago on December 20th | J | 3 notes

Someone remind me that waist-length dreads are a bad idea. Because not only am I already pretty not-looked-for in the employment arena, but because damn that would be so heavy. And also because I’d end up cutting myself a dreadhawk and it is cold. Plus probably wouldn’t suit me but whatever other reasons first.

5 months ago on December 12th | J | 0 notes